I fight, I am not sure if I do my best or no, but I’m still here despite the war that I suffer every day against death is running me.
For me, that’s enough fighting, so his call promising me peace and eternal rest is so tempting, as much as sometimes I have approached to try, coming back quickly for those who are still here, but not for me.
That’s fight, because so weak as I am, resisting every day to something that I desire and it seek me, it’s tremendous struggle.
Do not call me coward, because panic, fear of the future or to lead a “normal life” paralyzes me. Maybe, I do not want that kind of life .
My war is even harder, due to I struggle to not let myself go, to stay in the normalcy of life that I do not want .
Do not call me a coward because I no longer dance , or do or can do what I did. Maybe I ‘m brave enough to say that these things no longer like me.

But that i do not believe me a coward, because winning this war every day for keeping even a half feet, it is very hard


Yo lucho, desconozco si con el suficiente empeño o no, pero sigo  apesar de la agotadora guerra que cada dia sufro contra la muerte.

Para mi, eso ya es suficiente lucha, pues su llamada, prometiendome paz y descanso eterno es tan tentadora, que a veces hasta me acerco a probarla, para luego volver, no por mí, sino por los que siguen aquí.


Eso es luchar, porque sin fuerzas cómo estoy, resistirme dia a dia a algo que deseo y me busca es tremenda lucha.
Que no me llamen cobarde porque el pánico, miedo al futuro o a llevar una vida “normal” me paralice. Quizás tampoco deseo ese tipo de vida.
Mi guerra es aun mas dura, pues lucho por no dejarme llevar, para quedarme en la normalidad de una vida que no deseo.
Que no me llamen cobarde porque ya no baile, o no haga ni pueda hacer lo que hacia, quizas soy valiente para decir que ya no me apetezca.

Pero que no me crea yo cobarde, pues ganar esta guerra cada día por mantenerme aunque sea medio en pie, es muy grande.

by Dreams’Espe
18/06/2016

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