This afternoon I was so bad, that I couldn’t stand the idea of keep alive, and even I was devising the way of doing it, if jump from a bridge, if buy the pills in the Pharmacy a and then take them in the field, far front my town and stay therrr until I die.
Sorry for who love me, but I can’t bearr it anymore, and the treatment that I have is not doing its effect or its too much slow.
Seeing that it was impossible to control me, I went to the emergency where the doctor told me that it should go to the psychiatrist at hospital so he would decide if should increase my medication or maybe I must be admitted in the hospital, because the solution is not to sleep me to not think.
Finally I been injecting relaxing, but the next time this happens, I should go to the hospital for that a psychiatrist be who decide.
It is very hard to say to someone, I want to die, help me!
What curious is life, this morning my practitioner has prescribed me a travel, that I must do obligatory, don’t mind if I feel like it or not, and this afternoon, another doctor wanted to send me to the hospital.
Life and death fix in me. The worst , i believe that death will win at the end.
Now I’m going to sleep, anxieties injection are doing effect.
– by Dreams’Espe