Again in the hall of the hospital waiting for my appointment with the new psychiatry. Lately I spend the days, sleeping, lying on my bed or sofa.
In spite of feeling better by talking with the psychiatry, I feel worse, he asked me questions in a way that have made me feel blame of my thoughts.
At the same time, he has managed that I wander me about my behaviour , what was his intention, but his manner has been a bit impolite and it did seem to me that he was arguing with me all time , rather than encouraging me to enhance. My sensation was that he was holding me in contempt.
Anyway he has prescribed more medicación than before. Now I have two kind of antidepressants and two kind of ansiolíticos. 10 pills in total.
Now I am a lost, I don’t know what think, I need already to put my mind to rest, whenever I arrive home I’ll take my pills and I will try to rest until tomorrow.
By the way, I am again in the bus station waiting for my bus. I have lost my bus and now I have to wait until 5.00pm, when It will take me to Venta Nueva, a little town located at 2 km over from my house.
I need to scape far away this weekend, I feel so.
I am upset over this damn depression, from now on I am going to change myself.
- To take care of me ( mental and physical )
- To take care of my children with sympathise, and trying to create a relaxing atmosphere.
- J.L. is off of my life.
- In September I want to take my English exams.
Now I am going to take my mind off, but I know clearly a thing. I want to travelling.
- by Dreams’Espe