I become in a dependent on anxiolytic pills. When I have a bit of a problem, I don’t sort out it, I just take some pills which help me not think. However, I am not able to resolve any problem. I feel as a part of my mind was stuck by the medication or by my depression.
Then, when surges something which need, eager, resolution, fierce, wit, I just break down and take pills to avoid the thoughts about killing myself.
And here I am, on Saturday evening, with four pills added to my daily dose of pills.
I feel I am disabled to the real life.